Hi ya'll! I'm back to update like, again after Idk how many months or weeks, ahahah! (: Well, today's update is just gonna be really simple as I've got some feelings to spill it out tonight. Heh.
What am I going to right now? I don't know anymore. Maybe I should just stop all this and start thinking straight for once! Which is, I'm guessing, kindda highly impossible for a person like me.
I like him, I really do like him. But somehow its like now after I've spilled out my secret to a couple of my friends, I suddenly don't wanna talk to him anymore OR maybe even don't wanna see him. But at the end of the day, I miss him. 爱一个人真的很辛苦。
Especially when he has so much difference from you. And you just gotta know him more and befriend him. But without knowing the consequences at the end of the day as well. That there might be a BIG chance that you'd fall for him, and fall hard. Then, in the end, just wanna give up but refuse to because at that time you've already thrown in too much of yourself towards him. That's how I'm feeling right now, that's how I'm feeling. For the whole day, but I don't want to act weird around him as well, it'll be too obvious.
But when can I tell him that I have strong feelings for him? After I've finished thinking about all this? Yes. And then I'll spill out the story to him from beginning till end? No. I don't wanna lose this special friendship I have with him. But seriously, for my wish this year, God, I only ask for his understanding and pray that he'll be open enough to maybe find the heart to accept me and give me a chance. Then I can show him how much he really means to me, and then maybe, I can start giving myself some confidence boost for relationships as I've lost too much in the past year. I will stand up again, and held my head up high and say, 'This is me. Megann. I am special, different and I've a heart like no other. And I love him, and Idc what others think about him because he is MY choice"
