You stay a little while , and touch me with your smile .
Hello all :)
It's been awhile , I know . And i'm uploading all the pictures from Sunday as promised . Have to resized all of them as well :( sigh . Then I've got my english summary , tree poem , and the highwayman newspaper article . To top all that , I've got addmaths exercises to complete from school ! :( Nooo ! I'm so lazy , but yet , I still have to do it . :/
Oh wells , I guess I'll have to finish up everything tonight ! If I can concentrate , well , I ain't gonna have any phone calls or gonna be busy with texts , soyeah , no reason for me to not finish up :P HAHA. Mm, yes, THE BIG SLEEPOVER IS THIS FRIDAY NIGHT ! WOOOOHOOOOO ;D CAN'T WAIT ! SUPERR EXCITED YOO ! :D OH YES ! x) And then church this Saturday evening with my beloved cell group , then tmr night is cell meeting at Ridzuan , Leo's place :) oh yes yes ! My week is packed filled with fun ! Yaaaay! I've never felt so happy in my entire life !
Oh , and I just noticed that lately whatever I do is all based on church . O: and church is making my days , weeks and months exciting and loved ! :D
I used to write your name , and put it in a frame .
The last days of my life , shall be spent happily before I find out the results later on . And therefore , I wanna live my life , a beautiful miracle , with or without you .
We look superbly happy , 'cause we are superbly happy! :)
Had cell group outing yesterday on Sunday . Supposed to wakeup at 6am but my alarm somehow died on me :( But luckily, Dicvinn called me! His call was my alarm , HAHA. 'Cause also he was picking me up from my house to Weishen's , soyeah . And he had to fetch Weimund as well , and HER alarm died on her aswell ! Yaaaay! I'm not the only one :) Well , so he ended up fetching Weimund first then came back to fetch me . Ish >:( I felt so bad , he had to take another BIG round all the way back to my house . Sigh . Oh wells , next time , Megann , sleep earlier and make sure that your alarm is on and not dead !
I couldn't really wakeup 'cause I slept later the night before . I was targetting to sleep at 2am , but failed miserably ! So I ended up sleeping at 4smth . And the also resulted to not being able to wakeup at 6am :(
Well , here's a lil sneak peak of what our outing was like :)
Not gonna say where or what we did , but just gonna let you guys see this couple of pictures . Alright , seeyou in the next post ! Ciao people ! :)
Went out to SP ytd with my 'mommay' and 'grandmother' :D HAHA. hmm, actually it's Chinleang and Bryan lah . Well , supposedly LJW and YokeHong were supposed to tag along as well, but yh no money , and stupid LJW dowan come 'cause little people -.- fuhlamak ! Like tht also can . Mm , then well , we watched Knight and Day :) had lunch at Sushi Zanmai ! YAY (Y) and well , yeah , guess that's all :) pictures below were taken during lunch !
I really thought that, after we got back, we could actually make this work .
We actually fine on the first couple of days, but then later on, your conscious mind somehow got to you, and you didn't want to forgive me anymore .
I tried .
I begged .
I cried .
I screamed out loud .
I hide my hurt .
I smile as if I've always been the happiest girl alive .
I laugh like there's no tomorrow so others wouldn't see the pain which I've stored in my eyes .
I didn't want to spend my last days with you like this . Getting hurt and crying . No ! That's not how I wanted it ! I wanted this to work out 'cause I had a good feeling about it when we got back again . But no , you just had to have a stubborn mind about what happened and put it into a big fuss . I'm still wondering , if at that time when you lied to me , why could I forgive you but this time , you couldn't forgive me ? WHY ?
My heart hurts . It hurts physically aswell . I just found out why already . You cheated on me . You were with another younger girl ! You think I was that stupid to just believe you like that ? Don't underestimate a girl to find out things you're hiding from her !
Exactly , and I've just got cheated ! by you ! When you said you didn't love any other than me . You said you would be loyal . I stayed as loyal as I could . Unlike you !
Boy , I wanna sing this song to you if I have the chance to :)
Here I Am - Leona Lewis
This is a crazy world These can be lonely days It's hard to know who's on your side Most of the time
Who can you really trust Who do you really know Is there anybody out there Who can make you feel less alone Sometimes you just can't make it on your own
If you need a place where you can run If you need a shoulder to cry on I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain When you need a healer for your pain I will be there time and time again When you need someone to love you Here I am, hmmm
If you have broken dreams Just lay them all on me I'll be the one who understands So take my hand
If there is emptiness You know I'll do my best To fill you up with all the love That I can show someone I promise you you'll never walk alone
Well if you need a place where you can run If you need a shoulder to cry on Well I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain When you need a healer for your pain I will be there time and time again When you need someone to love you Here I am, oooo
Everybody needs somebody who They can pour their heart and soul into
Well if you need a place where you can run If you need a shoulder to cry on I'll always be your friend
When you need a shelter from the rain When you need a healer for your pain I will be there time and time again When you need someone to love you Here I am, Here I am, mmmmmm
Let me ask you a question . Have you ever actually appreciated your cousins existence in your life ? Once or twice maybe ? But all the time , have you ever thought that ? I have :) yes . All the time in fact ! Well , for one thing is 'cause , when you're with them , it's never ending laughter and happiness :D yeahman (Y) Another is , whenever I"m down or depressed , just talking to them about my problems will eventually be turned into laughter or a dirty jokeeee x) Yes! That's how awesome they are ! I would've posted up more pictures of us together but sadly I can't anymore of our pictures we took together last time . Just these few for now . ;(
Because when you have them , they become the most precious human beings in your life . If you'd ask me whether I'd spend my entire life with them when I've nobody , I would :) Never in my life , would I palce them last or first , BUT , I shall place them in a special place , deep in my heart . Just talking to them is all I need for entertainment , humor , andd , happiness :D
But loving you was the only medicine I needed to keep my soul alive . Without it , I'm like a drug addict looking for my drugs .
Hello there :)
Third day of School :
I died during my two hours of Physics & I soo did not pay attention in my one hour of AddMaths class .
Okay, overall , I died in school today . I slept at 5:15am this morning and wokeup at 8am ! What do you expect ? It ain't my fault that I couldn't sleep right ? I really wanted to sleep but can't ! Aiks :/ this is getting scary. Sigh . Well , also , alot of things have been going on in mind lately , so many that I've lost count and some that I'm too scared t even think about it or when I sleep I'll dream about it and it'll come true . I don't want that to happen ! :(
Ahh, well, what's done is done . Can't do anything about it except for to hope for the best!
bby, whatever that happened today, I don't care who started it, all I know is that, iloveyou, and i'm not giving up that easily yet!
How I wish that I could turn back time , and tell you how much I love you . So that you wouldn't doubt my love for you only now .
It's late . Very late . 4:40am , and I'm still wide awake . I'm afraid . I can't sleep . I haven't been talking to you much . You haven't been online for some time . You aren't replying my texts except for the last few nights . But when you do , you're so cold . It's like , tho I'm your girlfriend , you still treat me so coldly . I really , don't want this fall back . No baby , no more , we'll have to talk this out sooner or later whether you like it or not . I don't wanna be shattered again . I don't want my heart to blank out and my mind to space out again like the last time . I really want us to work out . iloveyou , boy .
Have you ever felt what I felt before ? Of how much you've hurt me but yet, I still forgive you ?
Hello :) It's 2:07am, and yours truly, is missing someone && eating x) Wanna know who and what ? SCROLL DOWN ;D
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yours truly misses Shalini soo badly and wants to go out with her and her awesome friends again ! :D Keep me posted yeah, on when's the next outing with you guys ! And yes, this time, just the seven of us ! ;D
Secondly, yours truly is eating Jack n Jill potato chips in the middle of the night ! How nice right ? Bwhahahah !! :D
And, she's eating bbq flavoured chips ! Mm, om nom nom :) hungryy , and eatinggg x) awesomeee ;D
If I dyed my hair blond , would you still recognise me ?
Helloooo all :)
I is baccck , home an hour ago from school . Spent a total , uhm , 13 hours in school exactly ! HAHAHAHA. Well , reason why is 'cause, every Tuesday is like this . After school, would be AddMaths tuition at 8pm , so before tuition , me and my friends would go out and eat our early dinner ! :D Hmm, I'm starting to like the dry black sauce panmee now, and I've been eating it ever since I liked it ! :) Wheee ! Deliciously satisfying , om nom nom ....
Well, alright, let's see, neh, nothing much happened today I guess .
Second day of School :
Fair enough :/
Mm, lastnight, I slept superr early. 10pm I already died on the bed without notice ! D: WOW. I didn't even bath yet -.- how awful. Then wokeup at 8:22am to get ready for school and yeah . Hmm, I think I'm gonna sleep late again tonight, I've not much to do anyway, soyeah, why not ? Since lastnight I slept early, got the energy to read and finish up my summary and Tree poem theme ! :) Alright, done , ciao people !
I've done my part, my very best to keep my distance with you close; but have you ?
Mm, yes, the pictures were taken not too long ago this year . W17 + W25 cell outing to Broga Hills ! :D Ohgosh , I would never forget that very day ! Haha , reason why I post these two pictures up is 'cause , I miss my ex-cell group leader ! D; Andrew Lau . Mm , and Leo as well . Both of them aren't in our cell groups anymore . First is 'cause we've multiplied into 3 CGs. W17, W25 & W57 :D I'm in W57 together with Jolene, Jessica, Dicvinn, Georgy, Weimund and Ian Lee ;D Yep. Ian Lee's our new cg leader for W57 !! :D
First day of school ,
SLEEPY D;
Blame insomnias that I've recently got it during the holidays ;(
I practically slept in class today after the first few morning classes . :/
If you want something done right , you gotta do it yourself .
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now .
I'm really worried now . Everything has so much tension now . The way he talked to him , just gives me enough tension and pressure to not sleep tonight at all .
And it can all, be found right there, in your heart .
Yes darling, you were my baby .
Tho you're not here with me now, you're still my baby .
Tho you're different than before , you're still my baby .
Tho you don't call me by my special name thaat often , you're still my baby .
When everything else goes wrong , I shall stand by you , to remind that I love you tho you're far from me .
Mm, I see, so.. Holidays are gonna by tonight eh ? Sighh.. Whylah end so fast ? Two weeks of holidays are like, two days of holidays -.- it's soo not fun at all ! This sucks D;
Well, I don't think that I can sleep tonight again I guess :( how awful .
Pictures below are from lastnight's dinner, still more to go, just waiting for my cousin to upload it herself ! Dammit, she's one lazy girl :P HAH, kidding. ( Don't get mad when you see this Ling, you know I love you :) my lesbo cousin )
But, your kiss and touch would be different by now.
The way you talk, is different as well .
I don't wanna lose you anymore , so , I'ma try my best to give in more this time and try to make things between me and you closer .
If you ask why, it's 'cause, you're important to me. So very important, not only do I love you, but I longed for you all this time .
Atleast please , help me out by trying to be closer to me and not distant yourself from me . I'm very scared , and worried , that you might be sometimes be , idk , maybe lying ? Or having another girlf ? Idk what it is , but , I hope it isn't any of those , and that you really love me.
Am I, really that shameful to you to be shown to others by you ?
It wasn't, like this before .
I hope it wears off , soon .
Before it's too late, and before everything starts to fall apart again .
Because, losing you, is one of my greatest fears .
At a time when you were gone, pieces of me fell apart .
I had nobody to look to , to look for comfort or for a shoulder to cry on .
Hello all :)
Goooood afternoon ! First of all , HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL SUPERDAD'S OUT THERE ! Hope that you guys had a great time with your dad , like I did . ( I guess ) Well, it was a lil different I suppose, not much lecture and more smiles and laughter than the usual in the week before . *winks* HAHA. Yeah (Y)
Alright, soyeah, I slept at 5smth this morning I think. Mm, I'ma die soon 'cause I really have insomnia already, it's confirmed ! ;( Noooo ! D: Please, I don't want eyebags anymore T.T
Wokeup at 8:20am this morning and got ready for church, and yeaah, dad went :) Well overall, today was great ;) anddd, having piano later . Aihh, replaement for ytd morning's one :(
Ciao people! :D
But, is that all enough ?
Just to look at me and smile , is that enough for you ?
Well, it's not for me . I don't want just looking at me and smiling anymore , I want you to hold me in your arms once again; and tell me that you wouldn't let me go no matter what happens .
When my world was falling apart, when there's no light to break up the dark; that's when I look at you .
I miss the sound of your voice , the touch of your hand , the feeling of your kiss and the way you look at me .
It's late. It's 3:32am and I'm still awake, together with Cheryl and Shushian . Hmm, we're all insomniacs :D Ahaha !! Oh well, stop bloggin then ! Shall go look for some videos to watch :) like, drama series ;)
Do you remember our first love , first time , first kiss ? Do you really remember every single detail of it like me ?
Oh darn it, it's 12:46am and I'm still awake. Well duh, can't sleep, what do you expect anyway ? I'm so worried about everything now. At this time of night, again. Well, it's the time where I can usually think propery and straight, I think, or maybe more like think too much . :/
I, don't know what to do anymore. I wanna talk to him but, he just, idk, doesn't want to ? Sigh, I'm not sure to be okay with it or what. When I really need him, he just, isn't quite there. But, when I don't need him, he'll always be standing here beside me. Why is that so ? I don't like this.
He once told me that he doesn't like me hiding stuff from him, but at that time I always
