Friday, July 30, 2010
I'm smiling ! :)
Will update about tonight and tmr's outing maybe on Monday! :D Hahahah! Cos my house internet is seriously slow! D: Soyeah (:
Anyway, a summary of tonight and tmr of what's gonna happen! ;)
Went out tonight to Taipan, Starbucks just now about 10 like that to meet up with my so called brother Patrick Ng Wei Hau! ;D YES! Loooong time never see him alr, soyeah lah! Had fun! Definately, but was only allowed to go out for 20mins. Sigh. D: Nyways, we're gonna meet up again soon and this time HE'S gonna call me, not me! Bwahahaha!
Tmr , would be whole day outing for me! Morning till evening will be movie's & shoppings with my sayangs, except mummy D: mummy couldn't make it :/ sigh. Then, at night, MTV world stage with my sister! :D Woooohoooo! ;D
& i'm out! :)
Thursday, July 29, 2010
The rain outside my window is pouring down .
But what would you do, if you found out that the person you've been loving all along, wasn't your boyfriend, but it was your good friend? Would it still hurt to know that after so long, he finally has a girlfriend, and you're alone just sitting here waiting for him. Hoping that one day he'll notice?
Monday, July 26, 2010
What's your new name called? :D
Okay, finally I've the time and the perfect internet to update my blog nicely! Alright, so if youve seen my Facebook name it's now, Megann Ho Wei Hau. Why? See the guy above in the picture? The mohawk dude? Yeah, his name is Patrick Ng WEI HAU! Now you know whr I got this lousy english chinese name from, HAHA. LOL, kidding. I gotta admit that it's actually really nice. Hmm, a nice ring to it :D aha! Well, reason why I have his name is cause he wouldn't accept that I don't have a english chinese name and I even forgotten my own CHINESE NAME. GOSH. HOW NICE OF ME. So yeah, he used his name and put it together with my name. I was like, okaaay. He was like, 'PUT IT AS YOUR FACEBOOK NAME! PUT IS AS YOUR FACEBOOK NAME!' ahhh well, lil boy wants his way, lil boy GOT his way. Aihhh :/
So anyway, I owe you guys an update about my mum's birthday which was idk how many Sunday's ago. So ! Dad brought us all to Marriot hotel to celebrate mum's birthday at this really cool Tuscany restaurant. YEAHMAN ;D we went there to like, idk, bathed or something like that as we were rushing for time. So yeah. Wow, the facilities were awesome! :) I didn't bring my DSLR as Bei Wei borrowed it. Soyeah, sorry for the lousy pictures. Long story cut short, we enjoyed the night!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
& I was like, baby, baby baby oooh! :D
Once, there was a girl, named Megann :)
She was lonely & single. Hoping to find true love soon enough to feel her life with happiness! & well, today, this evening, on the 24th of July, 2010, she found her true love! :D HAHA.
Megann (: ♥
Shushian :D ♥
Well, two years agoo, Megann met Shushian as she was in the same class with her. Sadly she wasn't close with her at all, till this year..... Something happened :) !
Yes, oh wells, I'm lazy to make up anymore stories so long story cut short !
I got married to Goh Shu Shian on the 24th of July! ;D YESH! HAHA, a once accquaintance to me is now my wifey!! :):) Mmm, yes, & I love her so much ! So very very much! Mwah mwah , oh yes & before I go , our song is Baby by Justin Bieber! Yesyes, it is! :]
& i'm out out out out ! Your turn to update your blog wifey! ;) ♥
Hmmmm, well, can say that life's been turing around good. :)
I've been making new friends on Fb from my old schoool! :D HAHA. && I love themm ! Heh. Also, I know I know, just another short update as I'm still lazy to update! ;D Will update soon kay! Also, wom't be updating or online-ing till after tests!
& i'm out out out! Byebye! :D
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
'Cause baby, you smile I smile :)
So it's another sleepless night. Well, then about now I should've have time to update d right? But, I don't want to! I'm just too lazy lah! Forgive me! Oh wells, guess I'll try to update a long post with pictures this weekend then :)
Hmm, school's fine. I'm fine, my life's fine. But my love life? At first I thought it was a dead end for me after B, but, little did I know, I fell in love all over again! :D Not too long ago.
To my dear star;
Get well soon kay you dumbo boy! Supposed to call & talk tonight but noo , you had to feel sick :) nyways, get better soon, we'll talk tmr! :D goooooooodnight!
What's it to you?
Quote of The Day;
Your lies don't fascinate me one bit ,
try again :)
Monday, July 19, 2010
I'm just so tired of you, & all your crap!
Is love a thousand miles away from me? Or is it just right beside me the whole time, but it's just that I haven't noticed it.
SUPER EXTRA LOUSY TONIGHT! I CAN'T SLEEP AT ALL! 'CAUSE, I'M SO SCARED. OF WHAT? My life . It's falling apart. Everything is falling apart.
I never expected to get lies from a person I once loved so much, & still do until today tho he lied. Idk why, but, this is just so fustrating as I feel like I'm lying to myself aswell. About the person I love. I'm trying to forget A but, it's impossible I guess.
& i'm out!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I wanna let him know that I'm better off without him (:
Had dinner tonight at Marriot hotel to celebrate my mum's birthday :) food was nice, area was good, & entertainment was awesome! ;D
HAHA! Won't be uploading pictures as blogger is PMS-ing tonight, so, tmr? Alright, then.
Shall stop here. Nothing more to say :)
& i'm out!
This is it!
That's it you big fat liar!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Gonna be a short post as I'ma get ready & I needa go out!
Don't just love me, embrace me as well
Whenever you wanna come back to me, I'll welcome you with open arms & a wide smile which I've been meaning to give you.
Goooooood evening! :)
Today was, tiring. Usual classes in the morning then later at night my cg :) well, I couldn't tag along in Jolene's car 'cause she had a family dinner with her family since her dad just came back from China or some sort. Soyeah. Found transport from Dicvinn, but last minute Jess had to pick me up from my u4 place 'cause Dicvinn was late. Couldn't blame him, was really jammed pack out there. Everybody was rushing home for dinner & stuff, blablabla. So, after my dinner around 6ish I slept on the couch awhile as I was soo exhausted felt so lethargic. Hmm, that means no more sleeping at 6am if you can't sleep! Should've tried to sleep lah! Regret :/
So anyway, alls well ends well. Tonight's Word was awesome & felt really blessed by it. Then Ian Lee shared her praise report about Sydney since she was there last week. Dicvinn kinda screwed up a lil during warmth time, when he was introducing it. But no worries bro, try again next time! We all have our times like this! ;)
After that, was fellowship time. Makan time loh, first we ate chocolate as Jolene's as Ian Lee bought as some chocolates! Mm, yummy! Then after that, Andrew went back home as he needed sleep. So, the rest of us went to Taipan's Sin Kong to eat Ian Lee's favourite hokkien mee & Jess' favourite har mee. LOL! Well, it was all nice tho. Had a great night with my spiritual family, really happy that Ian Lee's finally back & service tmr evening as usual.
& i'm out!
Seek God , & He will answer your prayers. (:
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Do you remember how we first met? :)
Goooooooooooood morning! I'm up early for once today!
It's 5:10am and i'm up! Okay, fine, I lied. I couldn't sleep. Bugger. So, to block my mind from extra thinking, I decided to continue watching my Autumn's Concerto. I'm now at, episode 7 part 5. LOL! Damn long kan ? I know. Ish. Oh wells, I guess now i'ma sleep. Have school and cg tmr so I'd better enjoy my few hours left of sleeping time. & then later on at school, my mummy is gonna hear me complain! Oh how I love my mummy! :)
Goodnight once again people.
& i'm out!
I've made up my mind about you.
No matter what, I still love you
Idk what's wrong with me. Something's going on with me.
I feel light headed whenever I think about it. I cry whenever that feling comes & stings my heart so badly. I sob in tears when I sleep every night now lately. I can't bring myself to knowing what's going on with me.
I love him. I do.
This feeling is gonna get the fool outta me soon if I don't solve it quick!
I still love you.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Maybe it's just the beginning of everything else?
This is my story to tell, about this boy I met last year, who showed and let me feel, what true love really is all about;
Would it only be that, pretty, slim, cute, hot, amazing features, flawless, & prefect girls, get their childhood dreams and perfect hot boyfriend who loves them for them and would never be unloyal no matter what happens, and would continue to endure their sadness with them, and wouldn't leave them unless if necessary and with a good reason? Would it be that only these kind of girls get what they want whenever they want it? Is this all true? All just made believe to us normal girls who hardly ever care about how we look but only care about how we act and whether we love, care, respect and appreciate our own parents?
From my experience, I don't think so. I used to be one of those girls who never care about how we look like or whether we're as pretty as these other girls. I was carefree, single, and enjoying every single second of my life. Till I reached a certain where love was introduced to me. From then now, everything about me changed. My looks, attitude, and even the way I dress, literally everything about me changed. But, there was only one thing left in me which didn't change. That is, I'm still a very open minded girl. Yes I admit, that my attitude is rotten. I try to hard, to impress not only guys but others, example: my friends, my family, my cousins, my boyfriend even somtimes. & also, I've never had steady relationships that lasted over 3 months till I was 14.
Back then, the kind of person I was, is a total disaster. Not a beautiful disaster, but a tragedy! I barely thought about how guys would feel if I treated them like crap and just dump them like that when I easily fall for another guy. And yes, it's true. I admit, that I fall for guys easily. But, eventho how rotten I was, fate never stopped caring for me or it didn't give up on me that easily, YET. This is because, in 2009, on the 31st of January, I, Megan Ho, fell in love after I recently broke up with my boyfriend of secondary 2. I never took this new relationship of mine seriously because, I thought to myself, 'Oh, must another guy just trying to confess to me, be with me, then later on we'll get tired of each other.' But no. I was wrong. For the first time in my life, I was wrong.
This new boyfriend of mine which I had last year, used to be nothing but an accquaintance to me. Yes, we go to the same tuition but we never talked. And that's how I got to know him, from far. But during the last week of tuition in 2008, he talked to me first, just by asking me this question, 'Eh megan, why are you using sucha old modeled phone when your sister is using a nicer phone than you?' I was shocked, not by what he said but because, he was so random! Suddenly talking to me like this, for once in tuition. So I simply answered with a awkward expression on my face, 'Uhh.. Cos I like this phone ma.' And he said, 'Oh. Ok.'
Well, I can't blame that he was that random, cause we never talk in class. So yeah. But later on, God knows how he got my number! He started texting me, at that time he was with my sister. So I was never interested as I've already a boyfriend. Then in 2009, on the second week of Janary, I broke up with my boyfriend which we lasted for, about 5 months I think. Still, I continued to be friends with my last ex, Jared and also continued to talk to this guy, code name, 'Ryan' when he's real name was actually Brandon. I didn't know that he was my sister's boyfriend, my sister's boyfriend who's talking to me with another personality! But in some ways, I don't know how, but, we eventually got together after he and my sister broke up. They weren't heart broken as my sister and him never really did work out.
& that's how, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Keep in my mind that I still don't know he was Brandon as I kept thinking that I was talking to 'Ryan'. As months passed by, I finally got to know that, he's Brandon and there was never a Ryan. He was afraid to tell me, because he said that I would get angry at him. But surprisngly I wasn't. Idk why, but I wasn't. & his reason for making up that other person was cause, he thought that I would only accept guys who are very high class. He said that, as he saw and knew my last ex as well. I was shocked! I mean, come on! Eventho I used to date a high class guy doesn't mean I'm not into not so high class guys as well right? Later on, we started talking to each other on the phone, almost every night.
6 months later, we were still together surprisingly. & we were happier than ever! We loved each other, and yes for the first time, I felt loved and I love another, full heartedly. He was the first, he made me feel that I'm actually in a relationship and that I was appreciated by others and that I was loved and cared for. On the first week of the June holidays last year, I was invited to go out with him and his friends to watch two movies. For the first time in 6 months, we've finally managed to go out together. I had fun, really. His friends are fun to be with, uhm, funny you could say maybe?
But still, I love him. Tho he's gone. Part One, end.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Victory and lost
This is gonna be a veryy short post, here goes ;
SPAIN WON , NETHERLANDS LOST.
I WASTED MY PRECIOUS SLEEPING HOURS JUST TO WATCH NETHERLANDS LOSE!
GAHHH , DOWAN SUPPORT ANYMORE FOOTBALL THINGYMAJINGS ALREADY LAH.
I'LL STICK TO TENNIS, Roger Federer. Omg so hot! :D
okay, bye :)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Maybe what they say is true
oh who am i kidding ? i can't have 2 at the same time, i must choose. but somehow, my heart isn't allowing me to do that. in fact, it's asking me to bail from all these and start a new life. which i don't want to, cos i don't want to run away from this problem of mine now, cos i've had enough of running away. like my dad always says, 'you can't run away forever, or hide it under the carpet, it'll come back and haunt you again.' and it is true. i've been through that, so many times. and so, i've had enough this. i wanna stay, and choose, and make up my mind. no more lies, no more jokes, no more hiding; but just the truth. and i know that the truth can be ugly. really ugly.
wish me luck.
This post is specially dedicated to,
A special someone who I used to think that I would never have got him and liked him ever since we got close. But little did I know , we eventually got together. After we got together, we felt that our relationship didn't really work out so, our relationship ended eventually. Everything of us went down, including our secret long lasting love for eachother. Atleast I thought so.
Okay, so why am I saying all these and typing out all these? It is because I had a weird dream lastnight, about who? Cjw lah -.- ! Ish , after that dream I felt so weird . Like, something was missing or something like that lah. :/ I'm sucha sad sad, lonely, pathetic lil girl.
It started out like this, it was in this weird scene. You know like those zombie movies where the whole town gets infected and by night you would get killed and eaten alive by these zombies? You know those kind of movies right? Right, well, we were in one of those movies. I also dk why, but, yeah.
So story goes like this,
( 5 seconds later , )
Okay you know what ? I'm lazy to type out everything, it would be sucha bore, SO, long story cut short.
He was at first looking at me, opposite the car. He was looking at me through the window. So was I. Well , I didn't had much thought or feelings towards him looking at me 'cause I knew that both of us don't have anything more in common. Soyeah. But then later on, he came round the car, where I was standing. & he suddenly hugged me. LOL. WHY? Idk also. I found it ridiculous till he said, 'I missed you so much, do you?' I replied, 'Yes, I do too.' (My mind was thinking, wtf was I saying? ) & he said, 'So, means you still love me? Yes?' I said, 'Yes, I still loveyou. ( again with wtf thingy , seriously what was going on with me in that dream ?! ) And later on he replied, 'I love you, I still do as well.' WHAAAAT , WAS GOING ON ?!
In a zombie scary looking kinda scene, suddenly got two people hugging each other saying 'i miss you' and 'i love you' to one another. Damn wtf kan ? -.-! Seriously man. What kind of dream was I having? But, this dream also made me realized something. It made me realise how much I really miss him. Deng!
Sigh, alright. & i'm out!
Two strangers learn to fall in love again :)
Watch this video , listen to the song. It's super nice! I love it man :) Thanks to Glee which they redid the song and upgraded the melody and whatsoever blablabla .. Anyways , I was thinking to sing this song as my solo for Appreciation Day this year. But , I had another opinion which is also another Glee song. Here it is :
To Sir, With Love
Listen to both and share your opinions with me please ? :) I would be more than happy to hear your opinions, anyone will do. Thanks .
& i'm out!
GO NETHERLANDS ! :D
Yaaaaaay ! Thanks to Carmen's netherland song ! Haha , I like the part where Jiawen will sing if spain loses . Nice onee ;)
Hahahah , okaay ! Tonight's match : ON ;D
Football craze ! Yikes !
Goooooooooooood evening my sayangs ! :D
Okay , i'ma watch tonight's match yoo ! I'm sooo excited , hahahah !! BUT , there's only one bad thing D: Sighh . I can't make up my mind now , thanks to JIAWEN. GOSH. NOOO , I don't wanna change my mind ! ):
But , don't worry Carmen , I haven't ENTIRELY change my mind yet ! Hahahah ! Anyways , it's gonna be a short post ni . 'Cause nothing much happened tonight , soyeah . Oh no , my sickness now + flu and cough D: shit! I don't wanna die yet . :/ *scared*
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Under the big blue sky
Especially when you thought that they were precious you .
Worst part is, it is precious to you; till now.
Hello , just back from my dad's friend's place in KK. Well , can't say it wasn't good right ? CJW was there and yeah well , relationship with him now , will forever be awkward. Thanks to a certain something that happened.
This is ridiculous , I feel down again. What is this lah ? It's not working right with him , I hardly ever get to talk to HIM , I can't tease or bully the other HIM anymore . What's going on ? I want my old life back. I want my own fair share of happiness and laughter. I want, you. That's my wish, my only wish. You.
I don't want him, I want you. Only you. I laughed when you smiled at me the other night. What the heck's wrong with me ?! It's not supposed to be like this, I'm supposed to actually love him, not you. ARGH, this is hopeless. I can't think straight. I need you.
Lastnight , when I had problems, I couldn't turn to anybody. Even if I had, it wasn't the same as yours. You wouldn't judge me, but you would instead help me then lecture me later on which I don't mind. But now , you're not able to do that anymore. I can't call you anymore at night if I was in trouble. I can't. This hurts.
Friday, July 9, 2010
The heart wants what the heart wants .
Hello , goooood afternoon there :)
I'm backk from lunch at Empire Gallery and a lil grocery shopping . Hmm , I love Empire man , it's soo super nice ! :D Yes , well , had lunch at some chinese restaurant then off we went to Jaya Grocery ! Mm , they have so many things to buy and soo many of my favourite snacks as well :D AHAH! Okay , long story cut short . I got my Nerds ! Yaay ! Oh how much have I longed for it and I got my Purple Oreo ! :D I wanna try it :) mm , om nom nom .
Alright , pictures :